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2004-12-21

Fool's Overture 

Click here to listenYou may have recognized the music I use as an intro for my columns. It is from the song "Fool's Overture" by Supertramp. Why did I pick this? Because I think the song is about late-onset, male-to-female transsexuals.
In the first few lines we hear about a hidden problem. Looking back, everything seems so obvious. But a drastic solution is called for. Listen:

History recalls how great the fall can be
While everybody's sleeping, the boats put out to sea
Borne on the wings of time
It seemed the answers were so easy to find
"Too late," the prophets cry
The island's sinking, let's take to the sky


The drastic solution in our case is of course to transition from living as a man to living as a woman.
If you do that, people will call you a fool. You will lose your pride as a man. You’ll be the laughing stock of the neighborhood. And you’ll have to endure severe pain. But don’t hide! Let the world know you are there, so that your sisters will feel they are not the only ones with this problem:

Called the man a fool, striped him of his pride
Everyone was laughing up until the day he died
And though the wound went deep
Still he's calling us out of our sleep
My friends, we're not alone
He waits in silence to lead us all home


I don't think I can lead home all my transsexual sisters, but I will try to help them if I can.
We all need to grow into our female selves. And that can be difficult:

So you tell me that you find it hard to grow
Well I know, I know, I know
And you tell me that you've many seeds to sow
Well I know, I know, I know


The 'seeds' of course point to the possibility to have children. If you transition you lose your ability to procreate. That's another thing we have to give up.
Oh well, we can go on sobbing about our problems, like the names the kids used to call us at primary school. But we do need a conclusion. How can we get on, what should we do?

Can you hear what I'm saying? Can you see the parts that I'm playing ?
"Holy Man, Rocker Man, Come on Queenie, Joker Man, Spider Man, Blue Eyed Meanie"
So you found your solution? What will be your last contribution?
"Live it up, rip it up, why so lazy? Give it out, dish it out, let's go crazy, Yeah!"


So that's it! Be yourself! Show them who you are! Yell it from the housetops if necessary. They may call you a fool, but you have the right to be yourself and to show that to the outside world.
That's why I make my publications on the Internet. That's why I do this column.


2004-12-07

Bearded Beauties 

Click here to listenYesterday evening it was again time for the monthly T&T-evening (T&T = Transvestism and Transsexuality) in Eindhoven. We have such an evening of the first Saturday of every month in a community building in Eindhoven. There is always a very good atmosphere. For a lot of men these evenings are their very first possibility to dress as a woman and be in the company of other people.
It is difficult to understand why our society makes such a problem of transvestism. This makes the life of transvestites filled with useless feelings of guilt and fear. And we are lucky to live in the Netherlands, because this is a very tolerant country. In the rest of the world there is much more bigotry...
I've had to struggle with the same feelings of guilt and fear, before I 'came out of the closet'. My very first visit to such a T&T-evening was an exciting experience. That was a few years ago already, but every month we get new visitors, who are there for the first time. They can feel safe there and they can meet people who meet the same difficulties in their lives for the first time. Those who are afraid to go outside in female clothing have the opportunity to enter in 'drab mode' and change their clothes inside the building.
All that is not necessary for me anymore, because I've been living as a woman 24/7 for a long time now, but I keep visiting these evenings because of the pleasant atmosphere and the many friends I meet there every time.

Each month the ladies from Medi Skin Care in Volendam are present too. They help us get rid of facial hair by using laser light. That is not cheap, but on these evenings we get a special price reduction. A visit to a normal skin therapist can easily cost you as much as $300, but we get our treatment at half the price!
Of course we discussed the latest plans of our government to take facial hair reduction for transsexual women out of the national health insurance program. These idiots don't know what they are doing!
I think it would be a great idea to have a big demonstration by transsexual women in The Hague by the end of May, when the weather will be fine. We could all dress in light, pretty summer dresses, but forget about shaving and make-up for the day. Or maybe even put on fake beards and moustaches. Let the government see what the results of such a policy are!


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